잠자리의 집

House of the Dragonfly

CIKI ~ 사이

CIKI, “Relationship”

 

I don’t really know if this requires a trigger warning or what, but this song is definitely intense and (if I translated correctly) discusses the topic of suicide so if you need sunshine and butterflies in your life, I would definitely advise against reading the lyrics of this song. It really is a great song, but the cheerfulness of the acoustic guitar definitely belies the seriousness nature of its lyrics.

 

 

한국어:

 

내가 너를 알게 되고

몇 번의 시시콜콜한 얘길 하고

조각나버린 병실처럼

멍하니 너를 기다리고 있어

 

그렇게도 저주하고

슬플 걸 알면서도

네가 날 구하러 와주길

다정한 목소리로

참 잘했다고

행복하게 잘 지내라며

 

우울하고 허전하고

여전히 네가 나를 잡을 것 같고

어젯밤도 지금 이 순간도

나만이 잠들지 못하는 것 같애

 

그렇게도 목을 매고

죽을 걸 알면서도

너는 날 버리지 않았지

다정한 목소리로 좋아한다고

행복하게 잘 지내자며

 

네가 내게 울먹이며 말을 해

미안해, 널 볼 수가 없다는 말에

이제 네가 보여서 널 안아야 하는데

왜 대신 들어오는 건 시퍼런 가위뿐인가요?

 

이제 네가 나의 눈을 가리네

태연해, 근데 자꾸 움츠러들 때

어떻게 널 원망해?

지금도 우린 이어져 있고

그건 네 잘못이 아니잖아

 

이제야 필요 없다 말하기엔 너무 늦었어

이미 새빨갛게 물든 나의 손목을 봐

언제부터 네 안에서 난 자꾸 견딜 수 없게 돼?

 

이제껏

너는 나 뿐이라고 속삭였던 것도

내게 이름을 지어주곤 미소 짓던 것도

다 안녕, 이 모든 게 다

잠깐 왔다 갈 사이였다고 우리

 

(내가 너를 알게 되고…

조각나버린 병실처럼…)

 

 

English:

 

I got to know you, and

told you countless, detailed stories

Like a fractured hospital room,

I’m blankly waiting for you

 

Even as I curse you like that

and know it will bring sadness,

I hope you’ll come looking for me

and tell me with a kind voice

that I did the right thing

and ask how I’ve been

 

It’s gloomy and lonely

It seems like you’ll still hold on to me

(but) last night and even this very moment

it seems like I’m the only one who can’t sleep

 

I hang myself like that and

even as I know I’ll die,

you didn’t throw me away, did you?

In a kind voice, you tell me you like me

and say let’s live happily

 

As you’re about to cry, you tell me

“I’m sorry, I can’t see you,” but with those words,

now you can see me so I should embrace you, but

why is it that I just pull out sharp scissors instead?

 

Now you cover my eyes

You’re so calm, but when you break down,

how am I to resent you?

Even now, we are connected

That isn’t your fault, you know

 

Now it’s too late to say you don’t need any of that

Take a look at my wrists, already stained scarlet

From what point was I unable to stand being within you?

 

Even until this very moment,

you whisper, “You’re the only one for me.”

You would call out my name with a smile

Goodbye to all that, everything

You said we were only a momentary relationship

 

(I got to know you…

Like a shattered hospital room…)

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