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상상은 여권이 필요없는 여행이다

필터 ~ 라스트 씬 (피쳐링 최자, 김예림)


Philtre, “Last Scene (feat. Choiza, Kim Ye Rim)”

To me, solo-producer Philtre couldn’t have asked for a better pair to help out with his latest track. Choiza’s slow, relaxed style fits Ye Rim’s smoky voice like a two-piece puzzle that reveals a subtle depiction of heartbreak. The sound, lyrics, and mv combine perfectly to create a quiet melancholy that is hard to shake.

And while I tend to dislike the lyrics for love songs, “Last Scene” somehow magically manages to avoid cliches, and actually has a few outstanding moments. I am particularly fond of how the failed relationship is equated to a calendar with all twelve months ripped out (다뜯긴 12월의달력), especially since the metaphor is continued; the person who left is in a new spring, starting a different four seasons with a new partner.

모든 말들이 다 거짓말 같고
이젠 아무것도 믿을 수 없네

거짓말들, 떨리는 눈빛
머뭇거리며 둘러댔던 끔찍한 변명들, 거지같은
넌 퍽이나 머리 아픈척하며
얘기를 돌리곤 했었지
난 느꼈어, 남 같은 거리감을

언젠가 버림받을 것 같아서
나 더 세게 널 붙잡았어
끝이란 낭떠러지 앞에 서서
나는 두려워서 눈 꼭 감았어
나 알았어, 숨기는 거
다른 사람이 네 목에 남긴 흔적
다 알면서도 나는 모르는 척
바보처럼 난 다 참았어

넌 알았어? 네 옆에서 나 속으로 끙끙 앓았어
자꾸 들리는 너에 대한 더러운 얘기들
듣기 싫어 두 귀를 닫았어
약간의 기대, 희미한 믿음,
지금의 날 버티게 하는 힘은
그거면 됐는데, 충분했는데
이제 끝내자는 네 이야기는
날 밑바닥까지 무너트려
하나 남은 촛불마저 꺼뜨려
남은 건 칠흑 같은 어둠뿐
지독한 고독이 추워 움츠러들어
내 입은 말하는 법을 잊은 듯
계속 한숨만 뱉지
난 너만을 그리는 붓
너 없는 내 삶은 공허한 백지

모든 말들이 다 거짓말 같고
이젠 아무것도 믿을 수 없네
이게 끝이라는 게 견딜 수 없고
부질없는 미움이 가슴 깊이 남아

‘끝’ 한 음절의 단어
볼 장 다 봤다는 뜻, 시작의 반어
그림을 그리듯 설명하자면
한 장만 남기고
다 뜯긴 12월의 달력
아직 내 시간은 추운 겨울에서 멈췄고
넌 시작했지 우리가 했던걸
그 사람과의 또 다른 사계절
넌 새로운 봄, 난 계속 너만을 바라봄,
네 마음은 날아가는 깃털, 난 물에 젖은 솜

모든 말들이 다 거짓말 같고
이젠 아무것도 믿을 수 없네
이게 끝이라는 게 견딜 수 없고
부질없는 미움이 가슴 깊이 남아

All words are like lies
Now I can’t believe anything

Lies, the shaken look in your eyes
As you hesitated, the awful excuses you concocted were like lies
As you pretended to have quite the headache
You spun your words, didn’t you
I felt it, this sense of being as distant as strangers

It felt like I would be abandoned at any time
So I held onto you even more
I stood in front of the cliff called The End
I was scared so I closed my eyes tight
I knew what you were trying to hide
Someone else left deep red on your neck
Even though I knew it all, I pretended not to
Like a fool, I held it all in

Did you know? By your side I brooded deep within
I kept hearing the dirty talk about you
I hated hearing it, I covered my ears
A small hope, a faint belief
That was the strength that let me bear it until now
Just that was enough, it was sufficient
But now when you suggest we end this
it tears me down to the very bottom
it extinguishes the single remaining candle flame
The only thing left is a pitch-black darkness
The awful loneliness is cold, I cower
It’s like my mouth forgot how to talk
I just keep sighing
I’m a brush that only draws you
My life without you is a blank white paper

All words are like lies
I can’t believe anything
I can’t stand that this is the end
Useless hatred is left deep within my heart

“End” is a one-syllable word
The meaning of doom, the opposite of “start”
To explain as if painting a picture,
only one glass is left,
all twelve months are torn out of the calendar
My time is still stopped in a cold winter
What we did, you started (again)
Another four seasons with that person
You’re a new spring, I just keep watching you
Your heart is flying, I’m water-soaked cotton

All words are like lies
I can’t believe anything
I can’t stand that this is the end
Useless hatred is left deep within my heart

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